Since I'm at the beginning of this Blog writing process, I think that I should state up front that I will try my best to keep my blogs as real as possible. What I mean is that I probably won't think twice about writing what's on my heart. This may mean shocking you with the fact that- Hey, I'm human! I make mistakes. I fail God. I please Him also. And you know what-I'll probably confess when I have failed and I'll celebrate when I have done well. But make no bones about it...what I share isn't about my feeling bad about myself when I have failed or boasting when I have done something really great. What it is about is being real and honest. It's about sharing life lessons; and it's about celebrating with God the great things that He does through us- His broken and less than perfect earthen vessels. It's about encouragement that if He can use me...then, what makes you think that He's not able to use you? It's about being inspired! It's really about Him and what He's doing....So, again, I invite you to join me on the journey...to watch and to experience what God does in my life and in yours!
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
Why now?
Welcome to my Blog. As I mentioned in the short blurb on the side, it's been on my heart to write for long time. I used to write poetry when I was growing up. Like for so many others, it was my outlet- my way of escaping- expressing myself-dealing with my emotions and all of the things that I went through while growing up. Writing was something that I really loved. I loved it so much that when I went to college, I majored in English with a writing emphasis. I thought for sure that I would go on and get my masters and teach others how to write poems; but I guess God had other plans. I graduated from college and I did take a class or two to begin the process of entering a master's program but I set the ambition aside to work full time and to volunteer in my local church. I also began to walk into a process of healing. It wasn't long before life became life and writing was set far on the back burner. Ironically, the more into the healing process I went, the less I desired or felt the need to write. I guess it wasn't necessary anymore as I found other ways of dealing with and expressing my emotions.
During this time, I felt a huge tugging on my heart to serve God on a more full time basis. So, in the Spring of 1998, I entered seminary to work on my Master of Divinity degree. Anyone who has done any post graduate work at all knows that studying eats all of your time. So, I continued the pattern of not writing anything except for assignments and papers. During this time, I continued walking through more healing. I came to a point where I found all of my old writings, the poems that I had written, and had been saving for I don't know what and threw them away. I didn't need them anymore. It was a symbolic shedding of the past and my moving forward into the future.
So, why begin writing again now? Well, the Lord has been tugging on my heart for a while-like since graduating from seminary- to write. But what? How? Where? Why? I have allowed all of these questions to be my obstacles/reasons for not writing anything-anywhere. But, God is gracious...and has a very funny sense of humor! I had asked God to convict me of my lack of writing...you know, because I have this awareness that I will get to heaven someday and He's gonna ask..."So, what did you do with the writing talent that I gave you?" And, I'm gonna be like..."Uhhhhh..." Well, a couple of months ago, I was preaching and talking to the church about using the gifts and talents that had been given to them. I share with them what I just wrote and said...God hasn't convicted me, He's just simply said..."You know what you should be doing- do it." Right after I said that, I read the passage in Matthew 25:14 and following of the parable of the talents. In the parable, the Master of the house is going away and gives three of his servants talents to take care of while he's gone. When the Master returns, the servants stand before him and share what they did with their talents. The first invested his and made double. The Master was pleased. The second did the same. Again, the Master was pleased. The third servant had the nerve to stand in front of the Master and tell him- "well, you know, I know that you are a hard man- so, out of fear, I buried your money. Here you go." The Master was so angry that he said.."you lazy and wicked servant." As God and the church were my witnesses- I was convicted. I by no means want to stand before God and hear him say to me..."You lazy and wicked servant!" So, here I am...writing....starting somewhere and allowing God to lead me on the journey. For now, I'm just sharing my thoughts with you. Things that I think about or insights that I might have..."A Ha!" moments...whatever the Spirit leads and lets see what happens....
During this time, I felt a huge tugging on my heart to serve God on a more full time basis. So, in the Spring of 1998, I entered seminary to work on my Master of Divinity degree. Anyone who has done any post graduate work at all knows that studying eats all of your time. So, I continued the pattern of not writing anything except for assignments and papers. During this time, I continued walking through more healing. I came to a point where I found all of my old writings, the poems that I had written, and had been saving for I don't know what and threw them away. I didn't need them anymore. It was a symbolic shedding of the past and my moving forward into the future.
So, why begin writing again now? Well, the Lord has been tugging on my heart for a while-like since graduating from seminary- to write. But what? How? Where? Why? I have allowed all of these questions to be my obstacles/reasons for not writing anything-anywhere. But, God is gracious...and has a very funny sense of humor! I had asked God to convict me of my lack of writing...you know, because I have this awareness that I will get to heaven someday and He's gonna ask..."So, what did you do with the writing talent that I gave you?" And, I'm gonna be like..."Uhhhhh..." Well, a couple of months ago, I was preaching and talking to the church about using the gifts and talents that had been given to them. I share with them what I just wrote and said...God hasn't convicted me, He's just simply said..."You know what you should be doing- do it." Right after I said that, I read the passage in Matthew 25:14 and following of the parable of the talents. In the parable, the Master of the house is going away and gives three of his servants talents to take care of while he's gone. When the Master returns, the servants stand before him and share what they did with their talents. The first invested his and made double. The Master was pleased. The second did the same. Again, the Master was pleased. The third servant had the nerve to stand in front of the Master and tell him- "well, you know, I know that you are a hard man- so, out of fear, I buried your money. Here you go." The Master was so angry that he said.."you lazy and wicked servant." As God and the church were my witnesses- I was convicted. I by no means want to stand before God and hear him say to me..."You lazy and wicked servant!" So, here I am...writing....starting somewhere and allowing God to lead me on the journey. For now, I'm just sharing my thoughts with you. Things that I think about or insights that I might have..."A Ha!" moments...whatever the Spirit leads and lets see what happens....
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